Complacency is a Bad Word

So every year around my birthday I get anxious. I guess in a way I always start to analyze my life. This year is no different.

I’m actually a little more anxious than normal. I’m in a middle of a stupid fight with my friend and I’m stuck in a dead-end job. I feel everyone around me is just happy being complacent. I have a friend who’s happy at his IT job. Six years, no promotion but he keeps hanging on because he feels comfortable there. My other friend left a job of eight years and moved on. Unfortunately this job has its own problems. Last year I was in the middle of working with a horrendous company. I’ve been with this new job for almost a year but I’m seeing the same old shit. Tons of bullshit, no chance of promotion and very little pay. Now instead of encouragement from others, I get the “it’s not better anyway else” speech from my friends. I just don’t understand why people have to be so negative. Why try to put a ka-bosh on someone trying to better themselves?

I am really done with all the negativity surrounding me. It seems this year I have dealt with people who have done nothing but tear me down. I just can’t accept that where I am at is where I’ll be for the rest of my life. Is it really that bad to want to improve yourself? Why do people want to keep doing the same things over and over. If you don’t move forward in life, then what’s the point of living? I know I have more to give than where I’m at now. I have some purpose other than what I’m doing now.